Fearless, Darling

Photo Bloopers

2011-10-03T20:36:00.000-07:00

Most of the time after a session, I pull up the computer chair
maybe have a cup of coffee ready to go
and I down load my pictures.

I most always know which ones that I want to go to right away. The ones that I know I want to edit right away and see the "finished" product.

Then, I go through every photo taken, and sometimes...
as much as certain photos stand out as "perfect..." a lot of the time, my favorites are the
blurry.

or the funny-everyone blinked ones.

or the "what the heck are they doing in this picture? one.

It happens every time, and though I always strive to get all amazing shots.. nobody is perfect, and sometimes there are bloopers.

Some kids make silly faces.

Some adults make silly faces.

Sometimes I get a little to close.

Everyone needs a snack-break.

Sometimes we even have melt-downs.

But isn't this the best part of life? That is, capturing what is real.

A Letter to everyone.

2011-09-28T15:15:00.000-07:00

I've had such a blessed September.

I got to see my future brother and sister in law get married.
Rain all that week... not much better the morning of the wedding. All of the sudden the clouds parted- and the sun was out. So beautiful. I'm so lucky to have gotten to be a part of their special day.

And by the way- didn't leave the dance floor all evening. So much fun.

Also got to take some engagement pictures for a friend who is getting married THIS FRIDAY! So excited to photograph her wedding!

Also, I got to spend time with a great family taking their family portraits. I was a bit nervous, only because I hadn't done a family session in quite a long time. But I am so happy with how these turned out. So beautiful in black and white especially.

I was lucky enough a few weeks later to be able to capture one year birthday pictures for them also. This little girl, is so gorgeous! The camera loves her!

I am so excited for what is to come this October, I feel so lucky to get to be doing what I love. I realize that I'm a long way from getting to do this full-time.. but I want to thank all of those people that have hired me to capture moments in their life for them.

I'm feel blessed that everyone has been happy with what I've done. I feel like I grow with every session, every encounter, and every person I meet.

Thank you to all of you that have allowed me to keep doing my passion. Thank you for recommending me to others, and thank you for going along with ideas I come up with, however weird some of them might seem.

I look forward to this coming month of couple sessions, senior portraits, engagement pictures, family pictures and weddings! I hope you know, how much it all means to me!

It's Really Almost September?

2011-08-23T20:04:00.000-07:00

Once again, time has gotten away from me. But I love so much that I can come back to this place anytime, and like a good friend, it's

always here.

I've been up to my ears in guest list finalizing, bridesmaid dress shopping, throwing a wedding shower for my future sister in law, working, photo booth prop-making, and of course my furry little guy keeps me very occupied.

This summer has gone by in such a blur, I cannot believe it is almost September. I walk through the stores and I see back to school supplies and Halloween decorations.

It seems all too early.

I have a sudden urge to buy notebooks, erasers and pens. I want a trapper-keeper. Do they make those anymore? A really cool one by Lisa Frank. Is that still around?

I've taken so many photos this summer, and yes they are mostly of the puppy, but my goal: get all of these photos piled up on the computer, printed out and at least organized.

I have so many more wedding goals to accomplish in the next month. I'd like to get them done by the second week of September.. however, that may be pushing it.

We took our engagement photos about two weeks ago. I'm patiently awaiting to get them back. I know, as a photographer, how long it takes to process, and put together all the photos taken. As a bride, I'm learning to relax and wait.

This is for my sake so it's out in the world,

and maybe I'll hold myself to it:

By September Be Done With:

Guest List *(all typed up with addresses)*
Save the dates designed, and printed
Photo booth built/props finished
DJ booked

I know, everyone is so interested.

lol

Silliest blog post ever.

More puppy? Mmm kay.

It's Officially Summer There Was Sand Between My Toes

2011-07-21T20:05:00.000-07:00

It's full summer-time here now. We broke 100 degrees today, and it felt like walking around an oven.. all the air gets sucked out of your lungs, and you sit down and still sweat.

But it beats Michigan winters. Seriously.

Last weekend, I spent with friends in Canada for Bayf est.

Enjoyed some great music.

Drank some Canadian beer from the beer store.

(Which closes at like 7- even on weekends)

Played some flip cup.

Laid out on the beach.

Got sand between my toes.

Got some sun.

Saw a man with a hair bikini.

Sorry for putting you on the internet Creepy McHairy, but you were asking for it.

Ate some vinegar fries.

(they were so amazing I took a billion pictures of just them)

A frozen banana (that looked suspicious)

And saw some funny animals.

Little Models

2011-07-10T20:52:00.000-07:00

Spent the entire day with my little cousins today. I love it when they are in town, because they are down for anything.

Even me making them wear dresses and pose outside for photographs in the summer heat.

I don't think they don't mind hanging out with their big cousin too much.

We went to lunch, did pictures, met some giant leggo ninjas, went to Art in the Park in our little town, ate massive amounts of sugar, got tattoos, our faces painted, spent lots of time with the puppy, we blew color bubbles, and even prank dialed some people.

So in other words, it was a pretty full day. I am pretty happy with how the pictures turned out. Their mom was very surprised and happy to get these. We picked out our favorites, edited them really quick, and went to the store and made prints.

These are my favorites:

I have lots more, that I will hopefully get around to posting soon! Not bad for a half hour!

Our Newest Addition

2011-07-09T16:30:00.000-07:00

I have been a very bad blogger lately! I have all these posts running around in my head that I would so absolutly love to post, but truth is- I just haven't had the energy to sit down, and compose one.

So hear is what has been happening.

First of all, working like crazy.

Second, there is a new addition at the apartment. His name is Remington or "Remy."

I.love.this.dog.

but as with any puppy, it sure takes up a lot of time.

But how could you resist spending as much time as possible with this little guy?

seriously.

Okay, I will cease with the puppy pictures even though I am a very proud Mama.

Thirdly, I have been freaking out that we haven't booked our wedding photographer yet. It is so very important to me, that I didn't want to wait to long to book and not have a good choice of who to go with.

Thankfully-

My aunt and Uncle suggested their friend's son and his wife as the photographers. Turns out, they are exactly my style, and my price range! They are a super nice couple who I think really get what my vision is, but who I also trust to take things their own way too. So as of this past Tuesday, we have our photographers booked. I am so excited!

We are probably going to take our engagement pictures done the first weekend of August! We have some cute things planned, and I cannot wait! It'll be just a little bit weird though, to be in front of the camera, instead of behind it.

I haven't done too many creative projects, because honestly- having a hard time to find enough energy to fold my laundry (and I'm serious because I have two loads siting in a pile on the couch right now that has been there for at least going on three nights. Pretty bad, I know.

What ya gonna do though?

Lastly, I have a couple photography jobs coming soon.. so that is good!

I promise to try to blog more. I know you're holding your breath...

Alright, one more puppy photo:

Mmm Green

2011-06-01T17:20:00.001-07:00

It never fails how every year I forget how much I love the outdoors. You sit inside all day, all winter long.. and then all of the sudden the sun is out, and you can breathe again.. save for the occasional allergy out bursts.

Everything seems to turn green in the blink of an eye.

I love the fun things that Michigan spring/summers hold. I love to drive through the park and see the woods glow and shine from a recent rainstorm. I love the rain on my window, the smell of the fresh grass wafting in the air...

I even love it when it rains the most it has rained in a very, very long time. Record breaking rain.

Enough to cover a baseball field to make a lake...

I mean, this is so beautiful. I can't help myself.

Update on things i'm doing lately

2011-05-17T15:00:00.000-07:00

A lot of stuff has happened, and has kept me away from here..

But it's been a lot of GOOD things. Really, GREAT things, actually.

My best friend visited us from Texas just recently. So we've been bridesmaids dress shopping for our wedding, out to eat, drinking, and hanging out. I so wish she lived here. Of course, I'd probably never get anything done. ever.

I also went wedding dress shopping! It's something I've been counting down to forever it seems like, and I'm happy to announce: I found one; I said YES to the DRESS! It was quite funny, it's almost exactly the opposite of what I had imagined myself in. I wont go into too much detail because you never know who might read this!

I've been planning some great ideas for the wedding. I've been checking off many items on my list of to-do's.. and it feels great.

There is a little over a year to go, I know I've got time. But with all the DIY projects I have planned, I have got to GET ON IT.

I also.

Found.

A. New.

JOB!

This is the number one thing I've needed to do for a while, and I'm so happy and excited for this new opportunity. It's an increase in pay too, lol...

The Easter Bunny Dropped By This Weekend. He Says Hi

2011-04-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

We hosted Easter this year at our house, and it was a blast!

I don't know why, maybe it's all the pretty colors.. but I love Easter. Maybe it's all the cute little furry bunnies and chickies... and yummy chocolate. Who knows.

But I just couldn't help myself.

We colored eggs...

Made cupcakes

and had lots of shenanigans.

All in all, it was a fun weekend. Now I'm going to colapse with a nice cup of my new tea I bought, and maybe nibble on this giant guy:

even though it might take me till next Easter to finish it.

Image Catch-Up

2011-04-01T18:49:00.000-07:00

No words today, just some pretty pictures. Because, sometimes.. I just don't have any words... just my camera.

Lets Sit And Sip In Silence

2011-03-29T19:49:00.000-07:00

Happy Tuesday, once again!

Honestly, if we were meeting for coffee today, I'd have not a lot to say. I'd probably just sort of sit there in silence. I apologize if that is a bit boring...

but we could pretend.

pretend we're sipping cafe' lattes in some quiet bookstore..

flipping thru art books... and becoming inspired by all the beautiful images.

That's a simple coffee date, but I'd love it.

Visit Amy and take a sip.

What Is Cheering Me Up

2011-03-28T12:45:00.000-07:00

It was another tough week. In result, I'm a little all over the place again.

And with my weekend coming to an end, I just have to mentally prepare myself for the sheer stupidity of it all. I so, so wish I could share more on here.

So with that said, I'm going to share some things that are truly improving my mood.

breakfast and bookstore date with daddy.

pandora. love song radio

photojojo on tumblr.

Self-timer.

playing with Leggos with little cousins.

Movie dates with the fiancée.

Being featured on this awesome photographer's blog

wanting this this and this

peanut butter sandwiches

(just mis-spelling sandwiches like 123123 times)

lol

Wandering around this greatness of a store

annnd that my wedding is now only 452 days away. siggggggggghhhh.

I Get To Choose. YOU too!

2011-03-21T21:15:00.000-07:00

It's a struggle enough to keep up with being a positive person, especially when you are naturally a pessimist. It's a struggle enough to keep your head up everyday when you aren't doing what you'd like to be doing in life.

But to be surrounded by toxic people for a majority of your day, your week, your month and so on... it becomes very hard.

I've had a tough week.

But today, I allowed myself to have a good day. Did you know you could do that? Allow yourself a good day? You can pick.

I slept in. Got to see my mom. Got a coffee. Watched television without someone switching the channel. Got to turn up my music. Got to dance without being laughed at. Got to clean because I felt like it. Got to organize. Got to see my dad. Got to make cupcakes with polka dot liners. And for the heck of it, just because, I got to take pictures of them.

It was a good day. And I plan on having a good week. Because I put it out there. Because I'm remembering to breathe. Remembering that I get to choose. Because it's a new week. and a new day.

Fearless Chaos

2011-03-16T19:02:00.000-07:00

"One must have

chaos in oneself,

to give birth to

a dancing star."

- fredrick niche

Virtual... Brownies?

2011-03-15T20:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Tuesday. It's Virtual Coffee Day!

Only today, it's virtual brownies.

If we were really meeting for brownies today.. I'd tell you that these aren't homemade brownies. They came from a box, but they make my apartment smell so amazing.

I like filling the apartment building with good smells. I like the thought that people may smell it and be a little bit jealous. I like to think I may inspire them to make some of their own...

If we were meeting for brownies today, I'd tell you that my new work schedule is awful. 11:15 a.m to 7:45 p.m. It's so random. I'd tell you a funny story that happened today at work. There are a lot of those that I can't repeat virtually. I'd get into trouble. But we'll just say someone finally showed someone a thing or two they needed to hear.

I'd also tell you how smart I am. I installed our printer today. Without any help. Of course, they make it really really easy.. but I still feel very technical. Can't wait to be able to print out pictures from my camera. If we were meeting for brownies today, I would take bets on how long it takes to run out of ink.

If we were eating brownies together in real life, I'd say we better quit before we both get a toothache...

Spring, Are You Here Yet? It's Cassie and I Miss You

2011-03-14T21:36:00.000-07:00

Had one of those perfect days...

even though I was running around like a chicken with it's head cut off... I got the opportunity to sit down and talk with a very cool chick photographer... I probably could have chatted with her for hours. I don't have many friends that understand the passion I feel for photography.. so to get to talk for a while with someone that gets it- was time well spent.

I also got to take part in something really special today that even though it is a secret, I feel very honored to have gotten to be involved.

I would really really like it if spring gets here soon. I really hate the rainy snowy nasty cold.. hate working in it..

I want to see grass getting greener.

I want to see flowers blooming.

I want to walk and feel a warm breeze.. not cold.

30 Day Challenge, Day Two & Three

2011-03-02T17:10:00.000-08:00

Day Two- A picture of you and someone you've been closest the longest.

Although I am very blessed to have many wonderful people in my life, I would say the person I've been closest to.. for the longest time.. would have to be my mom. I mean, she's been around for everything, my whole entire life.

Annd just for fun, isn't she the cutest? She went to New York last year to visit family and I made her specifically take this picture. I told her that all I wanted from her trip was a photo of her doing the "omg I'm in New York" pose.

It turned out just how I wanted it to.

That's a long 24 years. And even if there have been years in between being a child and becoming an adult where we may have not seen eye to eye.. when things get serious, when things get scary, when I have nobody else in the whole enti

re world, she will always be there.

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Day Three- A picture of the cast from your favorite show

I have a lot of favorite shows, but Friends will always be number 1. I love love this show. And yes, I own all 10 seasons.

Lets See If I Can Keep Up With This: 30 Day DAY ONE

2011-02-28T14:42:00.000-08:00

30 Day Photo Challenge

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Why Not? Lets see if I can keep up with it.. :-D I'm not always good at forcing myself to do this kind of thing.. I like to take things like creativity as they come. However, this sounds fun. So we shall see.

You should do it too :-D

Day 01 - A Picture of Yourself and Ten Facts.

Fact One: I really hate taking photos of myself. I dislike it with a passion. I used to think self-portraits were sort of silly and stupid.. but I can understand it.. it's forcing yourself.. to really really see yourself.

Fact Two: I've been dating the same guy for 8 years. Yes, I've dated other people. No, I do not feel like I haven't gotten to "date." Trust me, we've been dating a long time.

Fact Three: I sing really loudly in my car. Even if I'm at a light. Someone usually stares at me. I'm okay with that.

Fact Four: I don't care if you think I'm really weird. I just know you're jealous, and I know even though I'm not "normal" I'm glad that I'm not boring.

Fact Five: My favorite word is discombobulated.

Fact Six: I love photography. It's my passion.

Fact Seven: One of my favorite places is the bookstore. I could spend hours there.

Fact Eight: I have seen every episode of friends. And yes, I can quote them, and often do

Fact Nine: I love cupcakes.

Fact Ten: I would die without Netflix.

Sometimes, Just Listen

2011-02-27T22:27:00.000-08:00

Sometimes there just aren't some words to say. Not that I have nothing to say, because I do. Believe me i do... there are just some days when it's important to keep quiet.

Sometimes, you just got to look, and don't speak.

Sometimes, it's alright to sit and listen... I don't know why so many people feel like they have to fill the silence.

Today is one of those days.

I'm listening to the rain dance.

I'm listening to the hum of a computer while it concentrates on my images.

I'm listening.

So I'm A Little Late

2011-02-26T23:14:00.001-08:00

Happy Valentines Day. Plus.. several days. It's ok. It's still February. And it's always the thought that counts, right?

So even if I'm a little bit late to jump on the band wagon, I actually had time and motivation tonight to do something with the cutest heart marsh mellows. Guess what? They are strawberry flavored.

My whole life, my mom has always made the most adorable hand-made cards. We always talked about creating our own card company, where she and I would both come up with ideas, she'd write the words, I would photograph her ideas and mine, and she'd put it all together.

Even though it's only ever been talk, I feel like it's something that one day my mom and I could really actually do.

All things are possible, no? And as I grow into learning processing on the computer, I feel like there is such a huge world of possibilities...

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It's just a little dream. I have a lot of those.

So dream a little dream.

Don't be afraid to celebrate a little late.

And it's okay sometimes to eat your photography props.

(and I most certainly did)

Olivia: Sneak Peak

2011-02-24T20:07:00.001-08:00

Almost close to being done with these, so I wanted to share a little bit of a preview/sneak peak.

Meet Olivia.

This past week, I got the opportunity to photograph the cutest newborn on the block. She's possibly the most perfect child.. so beautiful. She makes your heart melt... and for only four weeks old, she did pretty well!

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I so want to do more newborn photography.

It was always really kind of scary when I worked in the photography studio to have a newborn session. This is only, only because I never had nearly enough time to do everything that I wanted. It is a hectic, stressful environment to do photography of any kind.. let alone the patience it takes for newborns.

Only problem is, I don't know a lot of people having babies right now. I wish I was at the point with my business to get work outside of people I know, and a small bit of word of mouth.

But anyhow, it was really great to have my dslr doing a session. The ability to capture very quickly and not having to worry about conserving film... being able to snap the shutter and getting instant gratification.

As much as I will always love film... I really understand using digital much better now.

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I do hope to have some more opportunities coming up. I want to take Easter photos for a friend, hopefully a couple of one year sessions, a possible wedding? annnd.. another I'm not sure about.. expecting a call hopefully!

We shall see.

Changing Dates, and Makin' Messes

2011-02-22T19:42:00.000-08:00

Ah, it's Virtual Tuesday Coffee again.

If we were having coffee today I'd tell you how everything these past few days has not exactly gone my way.

For example, I'd tell you how wonderfully beautiful the place we want the wedding to be at is. I mean, it's gorgeous.

But then I'd tell you that even though the entire month of June 2012 is open.. except for June 23rd- the one day that I want. It really isn't that big of a deal, we can just do it the day before.. it's just really really annoying.

I'd also tell you how I planned a whole entire day to hang out with my mom, and it decided to snow 10 inches.

And my shot for today's post ended up with me over-flowing the cup.. and making a huge huge mess...

It's been an interesting couple of days, for sure..

But, I'll tell ya.. it's all good.

Ps. I can't wait to show the pictures that I'm working on.. I got a chance to take the cutest most precious little girls four week old pictures. It's the first time I got to use my camera for work.. but I can hardly call it work.. it was way too fun! Check back soon, and I'll post a little preview!

Walked Around All Day, My Feet Hurt

2011-02-13T18:06:00.001-08:00

Big sigh. I've been a little all over the place as of lately. Both Brandon and I have been battling being sick. Tis the season, especially with both of us working outside in the harsh cold everyday.. it can be really hard to recover.

There fore, I haven't been able to experiment too much with my new camera, which makes me super sad. But being sick, you don't tend to feel very creative...

I have been gathering lots of information and ideas for the wedding though. Lots and lots of eye candy.. and it's very over-whelming. I am starting to get a little more centered towards what I want to do.

I started making these wonderful paper ball thingy-things that are so fantastically simple.. they will be hanging somewhere during the ceremony/reception.

Went to a bridal show today, which was so much fun it was ridiculous! There was a wealth of information... and we walked around all day from 12-4... then out to eat.. my little feets hurt!

But I'm very excited to start thinking about what I want out of engagement photos, and the whole process of picking out our photographer. There are so many talented people out there! I wish I could hire them all. I wish I had enough money to buy everything wonderful they offer just so I can fill my whole wall with beautiful images of the day I've been waiting for FOREVER.

Anywhooo.. enough dreaming.. we also will be going this Saturday to *hopefully* our wedding venue. A very wonderful park where we can get married under a beautiful tree!

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My goal is to get really creative on my day off tomorrow. I beeeeeelieve I can do it! Hopefully a post two days in a row? I may get that motivated.

Eye Candy

2011-01-14T20:41:00.000-08:00

I wish I had all the money in the world to do all the things that I wanted for this wedding, but I don't.

The more and more I plan, as excited as I am (and that's really excited) all I keep thinking about is things don't have to be perfect. I'll try to make them perfect, but I refuse to spend this time stressing out. I only get one day, but I get to be married to my best friend for the rest of my life. So it may be about the details, but the biggest detail of all; the biggest part.. the big picture.. is in 526 days from today, I get to marry the man of my dreams.

I tend to get these looks of "ummm it's a little early to be planning already," when I start with the wedding talk. I really really don't think it's too early. I think brides stress so much because 1. they forget it isn't really just about the bride, it's your groom's day too and 2. they wait until the last minute to plan everything.. and it looses the fun part of it.

So even if it's a year and half away, I'm planning.

Here is some inspiration for our wedding.. a little eye candy thank you, theKnot.com

Double Espresso, Please

2011-01-04T23:20:00.000-08:00

Tuesday Virtual Coffee.. mmm.

If we were meeting for coffee today, I'd tell you to make it a double shot of espresso because I have been so tired...

If you were here for coffee today, you'd see the apartment is looking much less festive. The Christmas decorations are put away in boxes. The tree is down, and my apartment door no longer has lights illuminating the hallway. I would point out, though, the mistletoe was neglected, and it is still hanging up. I would tell you I plan on leaving it.. until someone notices. It's a bit of holiday leftovers just for me if you will.

I'd tell you I really would like to hang some of my paintings, but I'm not brave enough. That, and I can't exactly decide what colors I'd want to use. I'd tell you, what I'd really like to do is paint our walls. But, we live in an apartment, and it's almost pointless because we'd have to repaint everything whenever we move. Annd with the red wall that I've always wanted, that would be a lot of primer.

I'd tell you I finally finished my book, The Winter Rose... going with a goal for the new year.. of reading more.

and lastly...

You'd see very quickly, if we were meeting for coffee today, that I can't leave the cat alone. I tell her, if she insists on being so cute, I must take her picture. Others may take photographs of their children being cute.. she's like my very furry kid. She hates it....

It's The New Year, believe it and breathe.

2011-01-03T22:32:00.000-08:00

I had to work every holiday. Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Years Eve, & New Years Day.. yuck

I can't believe the year is now 2011... it feels weird to write that to me for some reason.

I am a little sad that 2010 is over... it was a really good year for me.

I never thought of a New Years resolution for this year... I'm never good at picking one.

I stayed in with the fiancée on New Years Eve. We cuddled on the couch, he surprised me with lobster, and we watched Dick Clark and Ryan Secrest.. and for some reason The Backstreet Boys were on there.. lol

I get to plan a wedding this year! I'm so excited.

I can't wait to use my dream camera in a session...

This is how I've been lately. Random thoughts. All over the place. My head is filled with everything. I need to calm down a bit... I need to chill.

This is a new experience of choosing a word for the year, but I'm going to try. I feel like my word would be breathe. I want to remember to breathe more this year.

It sure is something, isn't it? Having to remind yourself to breathe?

But sometimes you have to do it. Sometimes, that's all you can

do.. is breathe.

I do have goals this year.

Most obviously, plan an amazing wedding..

But I really want to do more. I want to notice more around me. I want to photograph everything. I want to watch less t.v. and read more. I want to remember my dreams and write them down. I want to do photography projects.. themed shoots, styled shoots.. I want to do everything... as much as I can

Oy! The yummy photos I'm taking!

2010-12-23T20:48:00.000-08:00

Goodness. Goodness. Look how yummy my pictures are turning out!

I haven't had a lot of time to really really really play with my camera.. but after the Holidays, and everything slows down a tad, I'm breaking out that user manual and reading it cover to cover.. or at least.. look at it.. lol

I hope everyone has a safe Christmas and one filled with lots of joy!

The First Real Snow & A Little Christmas Cutie

2010-12-22T19:38:00.000-08:00

I never really count the little flurries and frost and all that nonsense that is called "snow." If there is a snow day where all the schools are closed, you don't go into work, and you have to dig your car out of your driveway.. then that, my dear, is the first snow.

A couple weeks ago, I braved the cold, dug myself out of the parking lot * OK I didn't really have to dig myself out, but you get it* I took out my camera and set off with some Christmas props for our Christmas cards.

I love love love them...

And may I tell you it was hard work freezing my booty off trying to get down in the snow for the right angle for the right shot? My butt was soaked, my fingers were numb, and I bought a extra large coffee to thaw myself out... :-)

A couple weeks ago, I also took some Christmas pictures for someone at work.. this is the first time I designed Christmas cards, but these though they are simple.. I think turned out really very sweet... and I'm very very happy with how the pictures came out.

And a little peak at one of her 9 month pictures, not involving a Santa outfit....

Merry Christmas Santa Baby, A Ring!

2010-12-21T05:02:00.000-08:00

What is your best Christmas memory? The one year that beats all others... the one that you will never forget?

This year is mine. by far.

That's right. You guessed it. I'm engaged!

It happened this weekend at our Christmas party. We had a lot of friends over and as soon as everyone arrived Brandon wanted me to open my present. I thought it was weird because nobody else was exchanging gifts. As a couple, we had decided to get something together for our apartment instead of buying separate gifts. So he already had me thrown for a loop.

I sat down, and opened it up.

The word "canon" jumped out at me. That's right. My dream camera. I finally had my DSLR. I was so ecstatic. Little did I know, there was more.

After me chattering on and on he handed me a memory card.

I turn on the camera.

I go to view the pictures on the card to "make sure to not delete his hunting pictures."

There was a picture of my ring on our Christmas tree. It hit me like a ton of bricks, I couldn't say anything. I just looked up, and he was on one knee.

I couldn't have asked for anything more this Christmas. I couldn't ask for anything more ever.

Enough gushing I guess, but expect a lot more of me on here because I have an awesome new camera, an awesome fiancée, and a wedding to plan!

Thank you to the bride and groom

2010-12-15T19:50:00.000-08:00

I have been editing like a crazy woman. I'm proud to say the wedding I photographed in November went very well. I love how everything turned out.. but most importantly, the couple and the family are happy as well... that is what really matters.

Every session is a learning experience, and an opportunity. I am so thankful I got to share in their special day. and to them: thank you. It means so much, that you gave a beginning photographer the chance to capture your wedding day. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I wish you many years of happiness.

A New Journal Started Today

2010-11-10T16:36:00.000-08:00

There is something wonderful about a well-loved journal. Every mark comes from my heart. Every scribble... every scratch... I make my mark and that journal... that journal holds it all.

There is something wonderful about a brand new journal. It can be scary sometimes, but I always let myself be reminded that.. I will carry my soul within it.. it soon will not be a book full of scary empty pages, but lovely little pieces and pages of me.

I have always kept some kind of journal.

It sort of grew from "dear diary" to "dear soul."

I feel like I have grown a lot, and as I look back at them I feel a little more connected to myself. I wrote so much poetry when I was going through my teenage years.

I ask myself, why don't I write anymore, why do poems not come so easy anymore?

It is my goal to start writing again...

And so, a new journal began today...

these are my eccentricities..

my odd ball remarks..

my off the cuff conversations with imaginaries..

long walks on the beach in December..

the un-fitting between life's lines..

breaking of shadows..

and lighting of candles..

Virtual Coffee, My First Sip

2010-11-09T18:42:00.000-08:00

Thought I'd join in on the fun!

If we were meeting for coffee today, you'd probably be drinking decaf... it's late. You might ask why we are meeting for coffee at this time of night. I'd tell you, sometimes I do that. I drink it late at night when I can sit in my jamies, put my feet up and sip away without being rushed to be out the door or be bothered with brushing my hair. But if we were meeting for coffee tonight, I'd probably at least wear jeans and put my hair up in a pony tail.

I'd tell you how when I was a kid, my mom always had a pot of coffee on. I'd tell you how the smell of hazelnut brings back so many memories of my childhood. The thought of waking up every morning to the smell of it... knowing that she was there... just there.

Or how I remember always getting to poor the creamer in my parent's coffee. Always got to stir it in, and watch everything mix together.

Also, I'd tell you... and you'd see.. the cat demands attention. I'd tell you all about her silly ways and you'd see how cute she is. We'd laugh at her playing on the stairs with the little ring that comes on the milk carton.

I'd tell you about how there is so much going on in my life right now with work and everything... I'd say that I'm enjoying coming home and relaxing in my own place, sipping coffee with you... even if it's only virtual.

The Last Glimpse of that fall light

2010-11-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

It's that time of year again, isn't it? The ground was kissed with frost the other day, and we got a tiny twinkle of snow falling. Fall is at a close. Thankfully, I got to do one more photo shoot in the fall leaves. This time, it is extra special because I got to take my boyfriend's younger brother.. and his fiance's engagement session. He's just like my own brother because I've known him since he was about nine. That's fifteen years... in case you can't add... or you're not sure how old I am. Anyways, the leaves were perfect once again.. and that golden fall light was perfect.

I mean, look at that glow around them? Maybe it's just love though...

I really love that all of this is coming together for me. I always had *and sometimes still do* a feeling that even if I took all the steps of creating business cards and this blog etc.. that nothing really would come out of it. I get more confident every session I do on my own ... not necessarily at work in the mall studio.

I learn something new every time. I do something every time that makes me proud and happy and feel the passion I have for photography. In the best words.. it sure feels good to be doing what I love. Even if I feel like I talk about this all the time, I don't really care... because I am that happy about it.

If you want to see more they are on Flickr!

I can't wait for my next session which will be a wedding! I'm nervous, excited, and pumped all at once.

Slowly getting to my dream of taking photography on as my full time gig. I shall prevail!

A Touch Of Red

2010-10-27T19:53:00.000-07:00

How is it possible, that a tree could have leaves both red and yellow?

The Best of Intentions

2010-10-24T20:49:00.001-07:00

I always have the best of intentions. Don't we all?

Obviously, I have not kept up with my photo a day.. capturing the moment experiment. Well, I have taken photos, but not in the true way that I wanted it all to go. I see things like "a photo a day" on blogs all the time. I love that idea. I love the process of knowing you must take a photo with a theme.. with a certain goal in mind. It's great.. but it only works for some people. I realize now, my creativity flows only when it wants to like a temperamental child... not always doing what I ask of it.

I wasn't lazy and forgot about it. I had my camera out.. I intended to take a beautiful photograph.. but because it was something forced.. I didn't like the result with most of what I captured.

I'm not giving up on my little project, however, I must alter it. It'll be "Capture the moment, when it comes." annnd.. keep my eyes open and my camera batteries charged.

So I apologize, my faithfull and "Many" readers.. I'm just gonna go with the flow.

Capture The Moment Day 1

2010-10-18T20:12:00.001-07:00

I wanted to start out my "Capture the moment" experiment with a fall theme.. because since yesterday, I know it'll all disappear soon.

There is the reddest red tree I've seen. I pass it everyday and again.. I always say that I'm going to take a picture of it. I haven't. Well, until now.

Even though, when I went out there to take pictures I got the funniest looks.. I'm glad I did it.. because now I can share how pretty it is!

Even though I know I'm the only one doing this, I shall keep doing it! It's nice to take a moment and notice the things around you.. and to capture them so you can save them always.

We also went to pick our pumpkins today.

Missed Moments

2010-10-17T17:10:00.000-07:00

Why is it that I blink once or twice and something disappears?

I have passed this certain tree everyday for the last week. It seemed the most beautiful mixture of yellow-gold and fire-orange. It hung perfectly over the ground and was right near a little lake. I kept meaning to stop and take it's picture. It was calling out my name. Calling out to me to spend time underneath it a dream.

Today was gorgeous. I was motivated. I had my camera. I had the time. I drove to the little tree to find it bare. No more perfect leaves. They were all gone. They had blown away as quickly as they had came.

I can't even explain how upset I was.

My point is, I don't want this to happen again. I'm an artist, I should be impulsive and always, always stop to smell the roses... I mean, stop to take the picture.

I'm starting a new goal.

Every darn day, I'm taking a photo. It could be anything. That way, I'm left open to do what I want with it. The whole point is to notice things more. Beauty. Ugliness. Something. I just want to capture it.

Who wants to join? I want to try at least a strait month!

pause to capture the moment.

Starts tomorrow.

Autumn and the makings of a perfect engagement session

2010-10-16T16:13:00.000-07:00

Fall always seems to creep up on me. All of the sudden my daily drive is filled with trees ablaze and glowing with wild oranges and luscious reds. Everything is kissed with perfect light.

It never lasts long enough. Before I know it, I can smell the chill in the air. I can see the leaves falling, covering the ground in a blanket of color. The branches go bare and one morning I'll walk outside to frost on my car.

Then it's winter. Winter is beautiful in it's own little way.. but fall.. I mean autumn, makes me feel alive.

Makes me want to be a kid again and run around until I'm breathless. I want ride along in my wagon through our neighborhood and collect the colors with my mom

again. I don't know if I'd fit in the wagon anymore though.

I got to go out and explore with the cutest couple Val & Gregg out in the glowing wonderful light a few weeks ago. We could feel that chill coming but I think they turned out wonderfully! Here are some but here are more!

A Baby Session! Yay!

2010-10-02T18:14:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago, I got the opportunity to have a session with this little cutie. Her name is Emma, and obviously, she is a sweat heart.

Every time I have an opportunity to take someone's photo, I jump at it. I absolutely love how they turned out. It brought back memories when I worked in a studio. I miss it so much sometimes... but I enjoy the freedom I have taking photographs outside of the "corporate" studio.

I feel like I'm being repetitive, but I have so much passion for photography... I feel so thrilled to have people want me to take photos for them. It makes me so blissful to be able to follow my passion, even if it is only part time for now.

If you are interested, there are a couple more on my flickr page. Also, some exciting news: this little cutie's mama is getting married in November, and I was asked to take the wedding photos! I cannot wait!!!

Remembering to breathe

2010-09-21T17:38:00.001-07:00

Life can get so hectic sometimes we just need to take a moment to stop.. and remember to inhale.. remember to breathe.

I have to remind myself constantly. I have to remind myself to stop. Take a moment. Just for me. Take a moment to notice something beautiful.

When I spent the holiday weekend in Indiana, I had the oppertunity to take a moment.

A moment that I got to walk with my camera in my hand and really notice the world. I found that when I got back I was so blissful. It may have only lasted a little time, but I still was happy in my moment... calm.

Passion

2010-09-15T09:00:00.001-07:00

I have a hard time explaining how I feel and I think it has to do with that I feel so many things at once. I feel so passionate that sometimes it all comes out a little crazy sounding.

I wonder why people are so afraid to show a little passion. That's what I really love about artists... even if they are afraid to put it all out there, it is so much a part of them they MUST share. That is what I love so much about the blog world. People are living their passions and they are putting it out there into the world... crazy sounding or not.

Working full time at something that is not my passion is at times, so impossible. You have to look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are better then the 9 to 5 and one day you will get to fully live your passion.

So I may feel crazy sometimes but it's a good crazy. Normal I think, is over rated.

So live passionately. Be crazy. Follow your dreams. Do it everyday and make people look at you and want to do the same.

It's been Long My Friends!

2010-09-01T20:00:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time hasn't it? Just about two months!

I hate writing these "yes, I'm still alive posts" but.. eh? What ya gonna do? When life moves the way it does sometimes.. you just have to focus on other areas.

While I've been away I moved into my own place with my boyfriend. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to be out on my own.. to be independent

... to have a place to call my home. We've been busy getting situated here and it has been amazing. And yes, we even have a kitchen table :0)

We have two bedrooms. Two! One has the computer in it.. with internet *which is why I'm finally able to post* and space for my craft things, room to paint.. be creative. So wonderful.

Anyhow, I realize I'm blabbering.. but that it how excited I've been about it all.

How has everyone's summer been going?

This is what I've been doing:

Having family over.

Catching froggies.

Making new friends.

And so much more. It has been a great summer.. and now.. I promise I will be on much more.

Busy Little Bee

2010-06-13T18:57:00.000-07:00

Isn't life funny? I've been very busy because they switched me to days which means instead of four tens.. I'm now on five eights.. which in all honestly sometimes turn into tens. It's all good... I'm trying to make the best out of it.. I have Saturday nights to go out.. and I have Sunday and Mondays off.

Annnnd the biggest and bestest news is that my boyfriend and I are moving into an apartment this Friday!! Finally, finally.. a place to call our own. I now will be excited every time we get a new appliance. It would also be nice to find a kitchen table, but it's a process I guess!

I'm sorry to all my millions of readers that I've still been a very bad blogger. *(lol)* but my life is consumed totally right now.. and I really do apologize.. lol

I will WILL post pictures of our apartment before the move, during the move, whatever I have energy for. :-)

and I hate DTE by the way for costing us 173 dollars just to start up and connect or whatever they charge for. just a side note.

I'm a little scatter brained right now, I apologize.

I'm off to watch the True Blood season premier... and then sleep!!

Sun Rise, Sun Set

2010-05-28T14:50:00.001-07:00

Work is back to normal.. for the most part... as normal as it could get. I still always look forward to my three days off though. Doesn't everyone look forward to their days off? This holiday weekend I will be working.. just like I do every weekend. No hot dogs, no pool side fun.. just dirty planes. It's ok.. because I go into work and get to see the sunset every night... and I get to see the sun rise every morning. Its not that bad. I'm at least pretending it's not that bad, :0)

It's good to have a bit of money to spend on just myself though. I've been saving it mostly but it's nice to go to the movies with friends and get a Starbucks every once and a while for myself on a hot day.

I've been drawing a lot lately, which is good. I've been somewhat creatively blocked lately.. in result of a new schedule and no drive whatsoever to look for inspiration anywhere. Well I think I'm used to everything now because I have tons of ideas flowing around in my head. I painted last night even! As soon as everything is finished, I promise I'll scan everything in. Annnd cross your fingers that I'm able to do two photography gigs possibly coming up.

On a side not, my little point and shoot digital camera has passed away. Not even a new battery could save him... he's just gone. So it's borrowing a camera for me now.. oh well. All the more reason to keep saving my DSLR.

I'm going for a new goal also. I'm trying to start writing poetry again. When I was in high school I wrote all the time.. and it just sort of came out very easily. Now it seems as if I'm always struggling for words.. and I'm not sure if it's just because my inner critic gets a hold of me.. or what. But, does anyone know any good writing prompts??

Sorry for the boring post but I'm on my way to work in just a few minutes... so I just wanted to check in. What's everyone doing this long weekend while I'm working??

I'm Still Alive

2010-05-20T09:25:00.000-07:00

I'm still alive, if you were wondering.

I'm wearing my flippie floppies out in the sun today. I have a Almond Milk Chocolate Iced Mocha in my hand. I got to finish my new Sookie Stackhouse book. I have the newest copy of Artful Blogging waiting to be drooled over. What could be better then that?

I've needed a good day. The last two days at work have been ridiculous. The normal pattern has been messed with because our lead is on vacation. I actually signed an agreement that I wouldn't share information about the company on social networking sites. I guess my blog isn't exactly a social network site, but I suppose it would count if they wanted it to count. We'll just say I've had a tough couple of days.. but it will hopefully be back to normal soon.

I haven't mustered up the energy to paint that painting I wanted to... I haven't even mustered up the motivation to buy new paints.. even though now I can. I just haven't. Partly, my room is a mess and I can't really paint on top of the pile of stuff. Partly, it seems like my three little days go by so fast that before I know it, I've run out of time for the fun stuff and need to take care of business stuff.

On days like today, I just want to veg out and not do anything.. which I think I deserve... right?

Anyhow, I know I've been a bad blogger again by not posting. But I sure don't want to stress over not posting.. because I really don't want this to be a chore. I want this to be my happy place. So it is. I don't want this to be destroyed by pressure

..or by someone who doesn't get it... or by someone who thinks I'm being fake ..

I'm putting myself out there. It's me. Not anyone else. All I can do is try be a good person. To put good things out there.. because I may get them in return. which i have. and that does not make me selfish. because everyone wishes good things for themselves.

and this just proves it. I don't know, maybe a year or so ago.. maybe longer.. I discovered art on youtube. I know that sounds a little.. weird.. but that's how it happened. I've always loved art.. but I just was.. reawakened to it on youtube. I found people like Suzi Blu. So completely different to me.. it was so playful and it was suddenly ok to be a little different again.

I also discovered an artist living in Florida.. Wyanne and I've followed her since. Something about her art gravitates to me. I love every painting and every week or so she hosts a give away.. well.. I won. I never win things.. except now I cannot say that! I won a print of her painting "Sea Garden." I got it in the mail the other day, and it's in my work locker so now I look at it everyday before the work day starts. It makes me smile. So much... and sometimes that's well needed at four in the morning.

I'm rambling a little bit, but I guess because it's my blog so if I want to ramble, more power to me..

Off I go, I'll be back when I can.

PS- do you like my new banner? My little cousin made if for me on Photoshop. I'm very happy with it! He spent so long on it.. I just want to let him know how much he rocks.. because layers and brushes and all that stuff.. still freaks me out. Thanks Ryan!

I Dreamed Of You Last Night

2010-05-05T19:31:00.000-07:00

I had such great intentions to do something creative today. I had huge plans to scrapbook, listen to music *maybe a little dancing* organize to consolidate supplies, take a roll of film and catch up on my blog list.

What did I do instead? I zonked out in bed all day. I must have needed it though because right now.. even though it's "late" I feel refreshed. I should take it easier on myself and just listen to my body.

I did a little doodling though. This is hopefully going to end up as a painting. I have a blank canvas that has been staring at me since I ran out of paint.

I had a dream about a camera though. I really did. I suppose even though I wasn't actively creating something in real life.. I was at least dreaming about it. I don't even especially want a fancy pants digital SLR like this one. Because in all honestly if I ever spent a good 2,500 bucks on a camera, I think I may have a heart attack. I would love the yummy 21 megapixles and HD video. But I dream much simpler with the Nikon D3000.. or dare I say the slightly more expensive Nikon D5000. If I save 25 bucks a week for the Nikon D5000 it would take me 28 weeks. A high goal indeed. A lengthy weight? Yes, ma'am. Is it worth it? I do believe. Any advice on cameras if by all means, I am dreaming of a cruddy piece of photographic equipment. Please do tell.

I dream of such odd things sometimes, I really do. I once dreamed during the winter months of finding a perfect mango in Michigan. I drove all over the state unable to find one. Never did. I'm still on the look-out and haven't given up.

I apologize for being a little all over the place but in all honestly I get like that after a good long sleep. My mind goes racing and sometimes nobody can keep up.

Perhaps, perhaps I'll be back tomorrow. I will try, darling. I have a realities & blessings post to make up, another round of hypothetical questions to answer, and laundry to do. I'm a busy little bee nowadays!

Positive Energy

2010-05-04T22:01:00.000-07:00

she works hard for the money, so hard for it honey...

This week has been a major adjustment to my schedule. Sleep during the day... work during the night... dinner in the morning... breakfast in the evening.. work Fri-Mon. But, I like working again. I especially like that I'll be getting paid on Friday! Can I get an OW OW?

The downside is, I have had no energy to create. I totally missed bench Monday this week. I get home, I eat, I sleep. If I have some time I want to spend it with my family or my boyfriend. Eventually I'll get back into a groove.

On a side note, planes are dirty.. :0) If you fly Delta out of Michigan one day... I may have helped clean it.

I have been trying so very hard to be more positive in life. I am a true pessimist at heart... and I don't like that about my self. In the last few days I have made an effort at work to be the one that's smiling, the one that's easy-going, and the one that is not so miserable all the time. I used to worry that if I acted all happy and positive all the time that people would see through me and call me fake. I really do believe now *and I'll try to keep it in mind on the tougher days* that even if you aren't feeling happy, if you act happy, you can become happy pretty darn quick.

I'm human, so I am so FAR from being perfect all the time.. but it's my goal to keep this up as much as I can. See someone I don't know.. smile at them. See someone that is having a bad day, ask them if they need anything... heck, even ask if they need a hug.. hugs are good.

So spread a little positive energy into the world today. It'll do your body good.

I'll be back tomorrow with some great stuff. I have three days off every week because I'm on 4, 10 hour days.. so I'm going to do some scrapbooking and maybe even some cleaning.. maybe..

Some more weheartit greatness.

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And there is nothing like practicing kung foo in the morning with your little cousins while they wait for the school bus.

Dedicated To: My Madre

2010-04-28T12:24:00.000-07:00

In honor of Mother's Day.

And yes, it's early.

A post dedicated to my mom.

What a woman.

There were some years where everything was difficult. When we lived together and when I was in high school we did not get along. My mom and I are very much different people.. and what is funny is I really do think we are the same in a lot of ways also.. so we clashed. A bit after graduation I moved out and to my grandparents. Since then, I have come to realize what an amazing woman my mom is.

They do say that after a child moves out (especially us daughters) you figure out what all your mom has done for you. I have apologized for being the way I was back then. I think we all owe our mom's the "I'm sorry I was so rotten to you" speech.

She is so many great little things that add up together to make her the unique person that she is... and I cannot possibly list them all...

But here are some:

1. She makes the cutest hand-made cards
2. She still writes letters *a lost art
3. She shares her stickers
4. You never know what she might say. (Even though I could probably repeat most of her stories, she surprises me sometimes)
5. She has a great way of decorating.. very much her own style.. and even though I used to not like it.. it's become something that is almost comforting to me

6. Even though I'm 23, she'll still wait on me because she loves me
7. She makes the best home-made French fries
8. She's always down for a garage sale
9. She keeps a cupboard *called the crap cupboard- since I was a kid) full of good finds to give to you whenever.. because she loves you
10. She still keeps drawings I made for her on her fridge

11. She still keeps baby pictures of me around

12. She's willing *Sometimes* to let me take fun pictures with her

13. The fact that she's awesome enough to hang out with my dad's side of the family even though they are divorced
14. She's the Nee Nee. My cousins named her that.. but it's become a special thing to me. You almost have to know her.. but it's the equivalent to how people refer to "The Fonz," that's what she is.. "The Nee Nee." It makes sense to our family I guess.. :0)
15. She humors everything I do pretty much.. even if it's silly
16. She's responsible for so many wonderful childhood memories.. I'll perhaps go into some another time.. there are a lot
17. She sacrifices for me. I know, most mothers do.. but for goodness sake when I was in elementary school and we lived in a one bedroom apartment I got the room. She slept on the couch!
18. She used to be a telemarketer. The worst job ever! But she treats the things in life that are not always fun.. with humor.
19. She's always the first person to send you a card, or call you on your birthday. She hardly ever forgets
20. She's quiet but she is not afraid to tell you like it is if you need to hear it.

There are much, much more...

But anyhow.. Mom: I love you. Happy Mother's Day!

ps. don't kill me for putting your picture on the internet. Trust me, you're safe.

Inspiration Deck

2010-04-26T13:36:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, if the mood strikes us, my dad and I go get coffee, and take a drive. We usually end up down the same long road.. he looks at houses and I stare out the window.
--When I was a kid, I used to roll the window down, and stick my hand out and pretend I was flying. I loved the feel of the wind blowing against my fingers; the sun warming them. I still do it every now and again...

Now, when I stare out the window I'm always thinking what kind of photo I would take of a tree, or a house, interesting landscape, or a session with some future couple. What is so hard, is that when I'm looking out the window wanting those shots.. I have no control over the car. Even when I'm driving I can't always stop. I was thinking: what a great idea it would be to take a photography road trip. Stop where we want to stop... whenever we want to stop... with creative like-minded people.. people who get it.

Who is up for it? Anyone? I know I can't do this right now... but I'm going to.. as soon as I possibly can. It's on my bucket list, for sure. Hmmm what is on yours?

This past Sunday, we took another one of those drives and we came across this property for sale. Twenty-one acres, and seven buildings. It used to be a little camp... so the buildings are more like teeny cabins. It was set back in the middle of the woods, with a lake in the back.. and in the front it had a group of tire swings. A group. How awesome is that? What a fun photography session that would make. Somehow, I think some s'mores would make an appearance :0)

I've been so inspired lately<3 I cannot wait to start this job, and get the supplies necessary to make these ideas of mine come to life.

So, some inspiration.
Ps. how come I have never heard of weheartit.com untill now? I feel gypped. Any other amazing websites I've missed?

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i really love these low-angle shots lately.

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this to me, is so magical looking that i feel like there is a fairy just out of the photo. i want to see woods like this

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it's so true. love that it looks like it's written on a mirror.
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this is such a yummy engagement session.. so sweet and simple
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love.the.light

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why don't we just "change" the things we don't like... i know we cannot always change certain things.. but we need to remember that we do have some power over our own destinies and our own happiness
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i love the under-water feel to this.. its... ugh I want to know how to do this.

Big Weight Off My Shoulders!

2010-04-21T17:23:00.000-07:00

I had my interview today.. interviews always make me nervous because you go over and over all the answers to their questions. You try to stand out from the crowd. Especially now a days with so many people looking for work.

I.Got.The.Job.

ahhh good things.

It's such a giant weight off of my shoulders. I'll be working the midnight shift.. full time. It's going to be different, that is for sure. I am a night person anyway, so I don't think too much of my sleep cycle will get messed up. I'm so glad to have something that is full time. No more of the 15 hours this week, 20 hours next week, 8 hours the next... consistency.

I have this feeling that life is going to go fast all of the sudden. I want to move out and have my own home. I want to move ahead in my relationship with Brandon. I want to finally get health things taken care of.. via my insurance!

And a really really really good celebration lunch with Brandon at Bagger Dave's.. Yummy burger with guacamole, sauted mushrooms, Swiss cheese and rosemary...

A little fill-in-the-blank thanks to Emma at From Scratch

1. When do you feel happiest?

After meeting someone creative and like-minded. After a long talk with them because they get it.

2. How do you take care of yourself?

As far as food, I try to watch what I eat. Mostly I go by two rules: Eat when I'm hungry only and eat portions that aren't too big.

3. Are you internally or externally motivated?

I would say a little of both but mostly internally because I tend to shut down when someone is trying to "motivate" me.. I do things in my own time.. that's for darn sure.

4. What do you do for fun?

Scrapbook, push paint around, listen to music, read blogs, play with my cousins, hang out with my main squeeze Brandon

5. What intimidates you?

Being in a group where I don't know anyone. My cheeks get all red.. I nervously giggle.

6. What is something you are proud of?

I'm pretty proud of my ability to make someone smile. That's a good thing.

7. Finish the sentence: I never...

Sleep in silence. I have to have something going on in the background.

8. Favorite vacation spot?

Texas, for sure.. my best friend lives there!!

9. Today is a (rate from 1 to 10)

Oh my goodness, a 10 for sure. I found a job! I got to program "work" into my phone.. lol

10. Finish the sentence: If you knew me really well you'd know...

That I can be really really weird sometimes.

Potential Business Cards

2010-04-20T17:22:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to figure out what to do as a business card. I came up with this idea.. and it's what the photo was taken for. I really love the fact that it's vertical and I think that sets it apart. I also want it to be rounded edges.. which I'm tending to favor in my photography as of lately. I would love some kind of textured recycled card stock.. but I'm sure that's expensive. Tell me what you guys think. This is not per say the final one.. but let me know your opinions.. what I might be missing.. what should be missing.. thanks!

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait

2010-04-20T11:44:00.000-07:00

Good Gosh Golly.. good things come to those who wait. Well I'm hoping so. I got a call today from the job I had applied to right before Easter *the one at the airport* I have an interview tomorrow! I'm thinking good things, and hoping that I'll get it. I love the airport.. I always have. Just to meet all sorts of different people from all walks of life! It's not the portrait studio, however.. this is a full time job.. and I'll take it.

good things. good things.
inspired things.
thinking positive thoughts.

I love this picture! What a fun idea. I love it when perspective is played with! I want to do more "fun" photography!

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I want to learn to rock photoshop like this! This picture rocks! Very dreamy.

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How freaking cute is this?? I really want to be able to do this. But I can't figure out how. I know it's donut holes and fondant. So cute it hurts.

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Cross your fingers for me!

A Great Week, & The Worlds Longest Post

2010-04-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

I was lazy in posting this week.. More this week, I promise!

It's realities and blessings time again! (a la Maegan) I look forward to this every week now! I find myself *at least trying* to think of the blessings in each little thing that goes on in my day to day life. So for this week:

Reality:

I am in pain.pain.PAIN. I have a horrible tooth ache. It's hard to sleep, and hard to eat. I don't have insurance and it would cost a lot of money to fix the problem. I could pay in installments, but I don't want to be in debt when I have no way to pay anything back.

Blessing:

Hard to find.. really. However, it's not like I don't have access to Tylenol. I'm not in so much pain that I can't eat at all... so it could be worse, a lot worse.

Reality:

Still no job.

Blessing:

Another opportunity. I found a really great portrait studio that is looking for full-time help. As much as the airport job would be great... I'd love to still do something creative for a job. Also, I could possibly be rehired by a past employer.

Reality:

If you may remember, I had an opportunity to take another couple's engagement photos. It did not happen because they booked a wedding photographer that offered an engagement session. I was super disappointed.

Blessing:

I have someone that is going to be doing my business cards! I can get my name out there more this way. When we have a design, I will post it up here.

Reality:

There is some drama going on in my family right now.. just stressfulness and craziness. I don't really know the details because I try to stay out of it, but I can feel that is there.

Blessing:

My family has a way with just moving on from the drama. We do really well at loving each other.. even after a fight.. we move on because we are family. I love my crazy family!

Reality:

I have pretty much run out of paints. I usually paint at night to relax myself. Sometimes it's just abstract paint-pushing. Not having any left, and no money to spend on "luxuries" I get stressed.

Blessing:

I own crayons. I own markers. I can catch up on my scrapbooking!

And some just great things/blessings abound!

*More rolls of film have been taken and are waiting to get developed! Gosh I love this type.. takes such yummy pictures.

*It's garage sale season! It's where I usually get lots of books.

*Park-going.. rediscovering see-saws and the swings!

*Ice cream. Peanut butter iditarod, pistachio, bananas foster.. and we have a drive-thru ice cream place.. down the street from my house. Amazing.

*Mothers that want you to take photos for her homemade cards. You should see these things.. hallmark eat your heart out. I'll share some soon!

*Mustaches! Pink ones!

*Avocados in salads.

*Beautiful trees

*Coloring

*Photobooth fun

*Finding Curious George's van (Can you see the license plate?)

*Spending time with little cousins. Like practicing fake bad kung-fu while they wait for the bus

and so sorry this is so long but I can't resist myself:

a la tollipop & more hypothetical situations!

1. Would you rather never have to wait in another line (on foot), or would you rather always have the right of way at intersections...meaning no more red lights (via automobile)?

tough choice because I like both of those things... and I know that's kind of odd. But I talk to people when I'm in line. I interact. I'm not an ant... going around do do do do do in life. I like red lights. I take pictures at red lights. I dance in my car at red lights. I suppose if I have to choose. No more red lights. That way, I can get to the lines faster?

2. Would you rather have the power to read people's thoughts, or would you like the ability to communicate with animals? (Sorry, that's borderline creepy...let's not say complete access to someone's mind, but more just an incredibly heightened awareness and perception of what people are feeling and thinking.)

Animals. I would have many a conversation with my cats. They seem interesting, and I'd like to know why the heck they do the things they do.

3. Would you like the ability to see a mile underground, or would you like the ability to see a mile underwater?

Underwater with no doubt. I can't hold my breath underwater very long so it'd be so great to see all the fish longer.

4. If you could wander in and out of the plot of any book, what would it be?

OMG. Probably The Other Boleyn Girl because I am fascinated with Tudor history. I just would stay out of King Henry's way

5. Would you rather have a secret garden full of all sorts of lovely growing things, with a cozy bench and a perfect patch of sunlight, and the power to bring anyone, anyone at all, to that place for a visit, or would you rather discover a secret corner in a library, a place no one else knows about or could ever find, with a huge, comfy cushion, a stack of wonderful books, and a window that allowed you a changing view of anywhere in the world (you simply had to ask)?

Hands down the secret corner in a library. And what a view that would be! Read French and see France!

6. Would you rather have an endless bar of the most scrumptious chocolate, or a perennial loaf of fresh bread (with no consequences, either way)?

Tough choice, but chocolate wins out.. only slightly though. Chocolate is just a different level of mmm-ness I have a major sweet tooth.

Oh Film, How Could I Have Forgotten You?

2010-04-11T11:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday when I participated in Ten on Ten I also took an entire roll of film.. and instead of leaving it in a shoebox somewhere and forgetting about it, I took it down to the store and got it developed right away.

One hour, one Slurpee, and a funny message left on my friends voice mail later, I had my pictures. When the lady handed them to me, she said "These are so beautiful!" And, I must say it made me smile.

The Scanner did kill them a bit but, I like a little grunge.

Ten On Ten: April

2010-04-10T16:39:00.000-07:00

I really honestly most definitely could not have asked for a better day. I slept in, had amazing coffee from a flower-shaped cup , watched a movie, enjoyed spring, took photographs, and got film developed for the first time in a long time.

I participated in Ten on Ten today. Ten photographs.. for ten hours.. on the tenth of every month. If you haven't done it, you should do it next month because it's wonderful making an effort to find the beauty in the every day... always keeping it on your mind to capture a beautiful photograph every hour. And these were taken with my cell phone and edited in picnik. How cool is that??

Because I was in photographer mode all day, I took a roll of film also. I love film. So much. I'll be scanning them into the computer and then uploading them here and on my flickr as soon as possible. I really hope the scanner doesn't kill them though.

A Mod-Podge Post

2010-04-09T16:05:00.000-07:00

Today really is a mod-podge post. Just all sorts of stuff going on... because I feel a little silly posting more then once in a day... not saying I'll never do it though.. I think I actually already have.. mm yeah :0)

Hypothetical Situations:

Thank you, Tollipop

1. What would you rather have--a mesmerizing singing voice, or the ability to speak ten languages of your choice?

I would most definitely want a mesmerizing singing voice. Because there are more then 10 languages in the world, and music speaks to any heart.. no matter what language it's spoken in. Reason why opera sang in Italian is still scrumptious.

2. Would you rather have at the snap of a finger--the ability to produce the most scrumptious meal or the ability to render your surroundings utterly clean?

The ability to render my surroundings utterly clean. I love the process of cooking/baking to much and I feel you would appreciate your meal more.. if you took the time to prepare it.

3. Would you like to breathe underwater or be able to see for miles?

Breathe underwater. I'd prove the existence of mermaids.

4. Would you like to be able to throw a killer, missile-guided football pass or be a fearless, no-splash, champion diver?

Fearless, no-splash, champion diver.. I'd get free Wheaties for life... right?

5. Would you rather have a magic pebble that allowed you unlimited instant travel anywhere on this planet or a pebble that allowed you the ability to go back in time?

Toughest one yet! A magic pebble that allowed unlimited instant travel anywhere on this planet. As much as it would interest me to travel to the past.. I would really save on airline fares.

6. If you could spend the day with anyone who presently lives on this earth, who would it be?

I have to choose one, right? I'm gonna go non-celebrity/famous and spend the day with my best friend. Who could I really have a better day with then her?

7. If you could spend the day with anyone who has ever lived on this earth, who would it be?

I'm going to go really hypothetical here and choose to spend the day with myself as a child.. Wouldn't that be a hoot?

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Realities and Blessings:

Thank you, Maegen

Reality: Not everyone appreciates the "blog.." if you know what I mean. Some people just don't get it, and tend to pick apart every sentence that I type out.. or certain words.

Blessing: Some people do get the "blog.." usually it's other bloggers.. or like-minded creative scrumptious people. AND that is a blessing. Because I'm now, what? Three months into this? It's wonderful to be responded to in such positive ways.. and it is so warming.

Reality: I'm still jobless

Blessing: I applied to a very promising job this week. It's full time. I could save for my camera.

Blessing to the 2nd power: As a couple of you know, I got to take some engagement photos. I have engagement photos in my portfolio now! *How I wish I could have access to the work I did in the JCPenny Studio I could have a lot more in it- two years worth* Anyhow.. it's possibly leading to another shoot. Crossing fingers doubly for this blessing!

Reality: I haven't journaled in a good.. two weeks?

Blessing: Sometimes, it takes some stepping back from everything and looking at things with fresh eyes. It works. Expect a journal post soon. Are you holding your breath? :0)

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The sky was SO yummy tonight. Top reason I love spring.

Oh. I've figured out my flickr. I could shoot myself for not getting it earlier. I'm obsessed.. so much eye candy, it's not fair. Totally going to do Bench Monday. And tomorrow... my first ten on ten! You should do it too! I've had it marked on my calender for like two weeks.

Coty & Crystal Part Duex

2010-04-06T10:58:00.000-07:00

I finished Coty & Crystal's engagement photos! Let me know what you guys think! I'm super excited how they turned out... and honestly there are probably more to be added but these are my favorites:

Also, if you have facebook become my fan! Maybe I'm a dork, but I think it's cool that someone could become my fan. I can't help myself!

Easter, Are You Gone?

2010-04-05T09:50:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe Easter has already come and gone. How was everyone's weekend? Mine was very calm.. which is nice because holidays usually are not.

I look outside, and cannot believe Spring is finally here. The grass is turning green! I packed my winter coat. I can wear flip flops. I feel like I keep talking about this.. but it just makes me so happy. Spring has got to be my favorite season. Now, ask me in the fall, and it'll be fall. Ask me during the summer, and it'll be summer.. but it will for sure never be winter. I belong in a warm state.. not Michigan.

I'm excited to hopefully this week take a photo walk. I haven't done that since high school photography class.. five years ago. It's time.

Another sure sign of Spring to me is getting out on the boat. It's become a favorite thing of mine. It's no huge yacht, but it's a pretty good sized bass boat.. Brandon fishes and I lay out and tan... this year I think I'll bring a book. The water trailing behind us, the birds flying and landing in the water, the sound of the fishing line being cast, Brandon yelling at the fish.. all good things. If it's hot enough, we'll anchor up and jump in... have our own little redneck yacht club in Michigan.. and yes.. there are rednecks in Michigan.. trust me.

We went out there for the first time the other day and though it was a bit chilly and I definitely got a wind headache.. it was quite and really nice to be outside on the water finally. No fish, but a fun ride for sure!

Coty & Crystal

2010-04-03T00:45:00.000-07:00

I got the opportunity to take engagement pictures (Congrats Coty & Crystal) for the first time today, and I have got to say: I have never felt like I belonged doing something so much- ever. Things just click.. and I get almost a high. I knew I wanted to take pictures.. but now I know.. does this make any sense?

It was a gorgeous yummy warm day and we took a ride out to U0fM Botanical Garden.. we walked the nature trail and took photos as we went. I took an insane amount, and they were both real troopers.. putting up with me making them do all sorts of weird things. Thank you so much guys for letting me do this for you! I had so much fun.

Here is a little preview already.. because I couldn't just let them sit on the computer.. :0)

Seriously and Wonderfully Do What I Want

2010-03-31T20:05:00.000-07:00

Today was so beautiful.

I'm so excited to have started my business! I have the opportunity to photograph a couple hopefully this Friday. The weather man says it's going to be nice. Lets hope so! I'm so incredibly excited and I have so many ideas on what we are going to do. In result, I started a Facebook page.. Fearless Photography so to the um.. few people reading this.. go on over and check it out. It's got a couple photos that I did when I was in a portrait studio.. just so I have something on there as an example of my work. I'm going to get a couple things on there.. and then whip up some business cards :-D and just go for it. Because, really.. all you can do is dive in, right? Wish me luck!

This is so much what I want to do. It has been since middle school. If this is my passion, then this is what I'm going to do.. follow my bliss. I want to capture moments in time that are beautiful and look fearlessly into the lens.. look fearlessly to the world that says the economy isn't good enough for this right now, this is just a hobby.. get a real job, you aren't any good so you're wasting your time.. well blah on y'all. I'm taking the leap and doing it. I have courage!

And on another note, possible "real" job opportunity. Cross your fingers, because I know realistically that I need to do something else in the meantime. My ultimate goal: seriously and wonderfully do what I want.. my passion.. for a living. I know I can do it.

A Little Link, Loves

2010-03-29T16:07:00.000-07:00

A little pick me up on a Monday. Recently discovered Amazon Universal Wishlist. Uh-Oh.. a big one. The one thing about being broke though, is planning things you would love to buy.. a little window shopping if you will. I posted before that when I find work I will "spend, spend, spend." Please know, this is just wishful thinking.. I don't plan on really spending everything... just so you're aware.. because I'm afraid it came out a little wrong to some people reading.

What are you wishing for lately?

+Claudine Hellmuth Sticky-back canvas.. I'm seeing this everywhere, and I want so bad to try it.

+I get it from my mother.. She had a whole collection of buttons and these ones just make me smile so big

+This book I already know by heart because I've looked at it a million times at Barnes & Noble. I cannot wait to decorate my own home one day. I want to still buy it though, just to have it sitting on my coffee table for inspiration.

+I'm a sucker for cobalt blue kitchen/home stuff. These salt shakers are totally beautiful.. and that's something I don't have yet.. salt shakers. What a great deal too.

+Ever heard of Bake it Pretty? Can I just have everything in their shop? Especially this and this?

+And how cute are these journals? I love dots. Wish someone would go to Anthropologie with me... it's only 23 miles away I just found out. It looks amazing and I keep hearing about it

+And of course, this camera - it's pink! And this one! Oh and.. this one annd.. last but not least.. perhaps the most.. this one!

+So many books, it's quite ridiculous here, here, here, and here

And so we have some photos in this post, :-D here are some from my week that I took, or got in my inbox.

+I also love discovering that you can make a collage on Picnik because I have yet to figure it out on Printshop Pro.. too confusing for my simple little mind.

+And thank you to Johnna for this.. because I can't quite do the real thing yet. Can't wait though.

+Loving this drink.. thank you, Starbucks.

+And trying to figure out my Flickr page I never understood it.. sets, photostreams, galleries, collections, tags.. it's too much, but I'll get it. Someone have any tips? Sheesh. I want everything organized the right way.. but goodness goodness.

Alright, enough right? Well fine then. :-D

Realities and Blessings

2010-03-28T16:24:00.000-07:00

I've been meaning to do this. Over at one of my favorite places, Madeline Bea she does a weekly "Reality and Blessings" post. I thought that I'd finally participate.

I really struggle to think glass half full, postitive thoughts. I hate to admit it, but I'm really a pecimist. But I'm tryin' here!

Reality:
I'm broke, broke, broke. I have no job right now and no money in the bank. I cant do what I want to do.. all the projects I dream up in my head or scribble down.. can't come out untill I have some cashola.
Blessing:
I rediscovered my sticker maker. I'm making home-made Easter cards... more to come soon.

I also don't have to pay rent. I really don't have any bills. So whenever I do find something, I'll be able to save, save, save. And then spend, spend, spend! You should see my Amazon Wishlist!!

Reality:
My camera is on it's last leg. Sometimes, I don't even bother taking it with me anywhere because it just takes blury photos if the light isn't bright, bright, bright.
Blessing:
My cell phone camera works pretty darn good. I'm actually impressed. This post has just pictures from my phone!

And since I couldn't think of another "reality" I could only come up with a "Blessing" *See, I'm getting better already*

Blessing:
I have a couple of things lined up to where I may be able to get more into my own photography business. A couple that are engaged looking for engagment pictures, and some new babies. Even though I do not have a "amazing" camera.. I do have a nice film SLR. It's a start... and cross your fingers these actually go through!

Edit:

Didn't get time to take a photo of each card that I made.. but here is a little shot of them all before they got passed out.

I drew on vellum with Souffle pens, cut it out and put it through my sticker maker... I love that thing. They were simple cards, but I plan on making some amazing Mother's Day cards that I'll share with you later. Don't forget, it's coming soon!

Musics.

2010-03-25T08:00:00.000-07:00

Ever since I can remember I've been a fan of music. I tend to like a little of everything.. literally. Put my iPod on shuffle and you'll never be bored. I do gravitate more to acoustic more then anything just because I love the sound. I love live music the most.

Went to a show the other night and saw Needtobreathe.. which if you've seen this movie they are on the soundtrack. I've seen them twice now, once as an opener and once as a headliner.. both shows rocked. They had Stephen Kellogg & the Sixers with them. I'll tell you what I forget how many times I've seen them.. but they are equally as amazing. They have a new cd out too.. check it out. Last but not least, Graham Colton. I had only heard a couple songs on the way to the show but I really liked him. If you've heard of Matt Wertz, or Matt Nathanson *one of my faves* they are very similar.

I feel so frustrated because I took a lot of pictures and not one of them came out very well. It's the concert lighting I know... but it is frustrating when I know that I could do better with another camera. Mine seems to be on it's last leg.

What are you guys listening to now right now?

Just Remember To Breathe

2010-03-21T22:25:00.000-07:00

It is trying so hard to be spring here, but it just hasn't gotten to it yet. The air smells so fresh and I can see the sun shining and I can almost get away with having the windows down in the car. That cold breeze just wont let up though. My Grandmother also tells me there are some buds in our back yard coming out.. and that gives me hope that it wont be Michigan winter any more.

We did get to go fishing today.

In between warming up my cold little fingers and keeping the hair out of my face.. I actually caught some fish!

I mostly just watched though.

Sometimes I wonder if people think I'm weird because I can just sit there and not talk.. and just watch. So many people have issues with quiet. I do not.. I try not to at least. We all go at such a mile a minute sometimes, we forget that for our sanity we just have to pause and meditate on what is going on around us... I need to do this to get a handle on things every once and a while.

Just remember to breathe.

Worthy

2010-03-17T16:57:00.001-07:00

I hate dreaming so big sometimes... because most of the time when I dream so big.. the result is hardly what I imagined it to be. I get let down in a way because I feel it's that I don't have the capability to create something worthy. To actually produce what I dreamt up.

I struggle to remember that I am worthy. We all are worthy enough to create things we dream up in our imaginations. What I have to constantly remember in the creative process is that it's about practice. It is more about the process. Sometimes even though our dreams are great, the other result... the new thing that comes out... is what is real. Real as in, what is coming out from our soul now.

So when I sit down and extract my dreams to reality.. I shut up. I just play.... I let myself be messy.

When I do that.. when I remember to let go.. I walk away feeling less like a failure and more like an artist... and that is what I am...

What is your creative process like? What frustrates you, and how do you let it go?

Crayon Cupcakes? You Don't Say!

2010-03-15T14:42:00.000-07:00

Having my little cousins around all the time now is wonderful! What sweet, energetic, silly girls they are. To have them so close now, makes me so happy. It's another excuse to play, and I love it.

We ventured down to the library to get them some books to read.. and I remember how much I love being surrounded by books. I love the smell. I really do. It's nice to see kids actually like to read! Then we went and had lunch, then back home to build a fort to read our books in... pure fun.

However the best part was a little project thanks to Collage Unleashed. Crayon cupcakes. I've done this before and it did not turn out well.. but I found this time around much more successful.

And this is how you do it:
Step one:

Peal the papers off your crayons!

Step Two:
Break Up The Pieces into cupcake liners.. might want to double them up because the wax will end up on the cupcake tray ( I learned that one)

*I added oil pastels to make them creamier. The book suggests glitter crayons. I agree*
Step Three:
Melt at 250 F
(Swirl them all around with a tooth pick to mix the colors)

Step Four:
Let them cool. Then color!!

So once again, thank you to Traci Bautista... you rock our world!

My Best Friend

2010-03-12T00:14:00.001-08:00

Another idea. Dedications.

I want to once a week show dedication to someone in my life, something in my life.. that just makes me happy. It can be big or small.. but something/someone that means a lot to me.

No surprise, after a week spent with her.. the first subject is my best friend.. Nanette. We met way back in seventh grade gym class. Since then, this girl gets me. Only certain people see my true craziness, my pure silliness, and my random humor. She really is the only one that doesn't look at me like I'm nuts half the time when I go dancing about in a random.. dance. And, if she does look at me that way.. it's only because she is laughing with me... not at me.. which is something I struggle all the time with.

This girl is too amazing for words, really. She lives too far away from me.. google maps tells me it's something like 1,124 miles away from my house. She used to live down the street. She's a crazy worker.. half the time when I get to talk to her it's only on a break from work or when she's driving home.. from work. But what amazes me so much about our friendship is that no matter how much time has passed since we last talked.. or how many miles apart we are.. things just click.

One of my favorites is how well she sings. She probably doesn't know how much I love to hear her sing.. but she is oh so very talented. hey Nanette, the reason I don't usually sing in church is because I like hearing you instead of my awful voice .

I'm so lucky to have her in my life. She prays for me, she supports me, she stands up for me, she gets me. So to you Nanette, thank you so very much for being my best friend. It means the world to me.

Ps. your doggies are pretty great too!

Bursting At The Seams

2010-03-10T10:23:00.000-08:00

On my plane ride to Texas, I brainstormed. What do I want to "put" on this blog? So many ideas, and so little way of doing them. I make excuses. My camera.. sucks. It will not take a decent macro shot to save it's life. My decent camera is a film SLR. As much as I want to shoot, I'm poor and cannot afford to develop roll after roll. When I was in school and had access to a darkroom.. no problemo.. but I don't any more.. and boy do I miss it. But I'm going to power through.

I will not make excuses. Though things like camera issues and such make things a little more difficult for me.. that just means I'll try harder. That's what I'm telling myself at least.

As far as idea one:
I'm learning Corel Paint Shop Pro Photo X2 which is much much much cheaper than Photoshop .. and less crazy confusing. So I thought, I'd share a journal page a week.. one version how it is in my art journal and one in the Paint Shop program.
Journal page on all my ideas:

The scanner does not do the real life version justice at all ..but I still really like both. I love all the layers of text.. that's usually how I work. I start off with something and add more later.. so everything just lies on top of everything else..

And oh my gosh! I finally figured out how to add a banner that.. looks actually how I wanted it. I really want something that is not just one image.. but more of a collage of photographs. Learning! What do y'all think? And yes, I'm still saying "y'all"

I'm Home Y'all!

2010-03-09T12:49:00.000-08:00

I've been in Texas y'all! I had internet access, but there was too much craziness going on, and by the end of the fun filled nights.. it was just time to go to bed! I know I should have let my "readers" know I'd be gone.. baad blogger. It's all good though... I wont do it again.

The best parts of Texas: my best friend! Amazing sunshine and no snow.. in March! I got to wear flip flops, sunglasses, and have the windows down. Puppies... three funny puppies. Great food. So much laughter!

While I was gone I did keep up with my goal of creating everyday. It may have been capturing a beautiful photograph, baking, or just journaling even just a little bit. I brainstormed a lot on the plane ride there with ideas for this blog. I have several things I will try sharing with "y'all" :-D

I took 144 pictures. Here are some really beautiful ones that I took... more to come... I promise.

Things That Make Me Happy

2010-02-25T10:06:00.000-08:00

I've been meaning to do this because lists make me happy but over at Madeline Bea she "tagged" all of us who read her blog...

I have many favorites.. many things I love.. but as of lately these are the ones that come out on top:

and in no particular order:
1. Martha Stewart Cupcake Book
2. V8 Splash Mango Peach Drink
3. Headbands
4. TTV Photography
5. Trips I get to take to Texas soon
6. My family living in Michigan once again
7. Netflix *even though my account isn't up right now*
8. Brandon
9. Souffle pens

Also,
10. Kitties that look up at me, blink their eyes, and meow for me to pet them...

Seven Years Rounds Up To A Decade

2010-02-23T10:24:00.000-08:00

Today is my anniversary with Brandon! Seven years. Seven long years. If you think about it, it's closer to a decade now. Made him his own special cupcakes today... so he wont have to share! Here is the recipe:

chocolate moose cupcakes:
*This was a small batch (8) so you may need to vary depending on how much you want to make *
(Preheat oven to 350)
1. Use a basic chocolate cake mix
2. Add 2 table spoons of oil
3. 1/4 cup of water
4. One egg
5. Beat in some whipped cream! Seriously.
(This makes them really really fluffy.. also they will rise a lot more.. so when you fill the liners, don't fill so much!)
6. Bake for 16-18 minutes.. know your oven :-D

Brown Sugar Frosting:
*I used a mix for frosting that came with a kit, however it looked more like sugar and coloring to me so it's not necessary*
1. Beat 8 Tbs. of room temperature butter on high (and it does have to be room temp. I learned that)
2. I added one cup of brown sugar
3. Add some more whipped cream (seriously)
(This frosting is kind of really really sweet so vary how much brown sugar by your own tastes. Also, it's very oily so it may not need as much butter)

Garnish how you want! I did a light amount of chocolate dot sprinkles because these are so sweet. I also used fun silicone liners I've been saving for just these!

Chill them in the fridge for about an hour.. take out, and serve to your sweet heart!

Trying New Things

2010-02-22T13:14:00.000-08:00

What a wonderful weekend I had. I spent it with Brandon to celebrate our seventh year of dating. He won free passes and free rental at Mt. Holly on the radio. We got to go skiing for the first time! I have to admit I was a little nervous only because I'm the most uncoordinated person alive. I was worried that I'd freeze, fall, and whine the whole time. But, when we got there it was so beautiful and the sun was shining...

And I couldn't help myself. We spent about twenty minutes *only* on the "bunny hill" and then went down the more difficult hills. I was very impressed with myself and with Brandon. This just shows me how I should believe in myself more. I'm always convincing myself that I can't do something.. but I need to remember to just try.

Although Brandon had me turn off texts :-D it was nice to be away with just the two of us only... no worrying about letting people know where we are.. and what time we'll be home. To another year, baby! I love you.

Love Day

2010-02-15T15:17:00.000-08:00

Spent Sunday with my little cousins. I promised them we'd make cupcakes, and oh boy did we! They were so perfectly pink and lighter then air. We decorated with sprinkles and candy and our own special colored icing. It was fun to watch the cupcakes transform into little yummy pieces of art.

I'm usually somewhat anti-Valentines Day.. only because Brandon and mine's anniversary is so very close and it would get to be too much. But this year, I wanted to take it all in. I didn't make the handmade Valentines that I wanted.. but it's always on the list for next year.. because I have so many cute ideas going around in my head. I just didn't have the motivation to do the cupcakes and the handmade Valentines. But it's all in an effort to do something creative.. I don't need to do everything.

Jumpin' On The Band Wagon

2010-02-11T16:57:00.000-08:00

Everyone is sharing such wonderful, beautiful, peaceful photographs of the crazy snow we've had. Last night, on my drive home the ground was glitter. The moon was bright so it shown so perfectly on the street.. it was late and nobody had gone through the path so it was so utterly perfect. I wanted so so so bad to get out, take photos, and come home and post them. My camera will not take photographs like that. It hurt so much to not be able to capture it on film.

Today however, we played in the snow and I took an entire roll and several with my digital point and shoot camera. When it is developed, I will post them. The little cousins ran and jumped and played and it was so fun to see them having so much uninhibited fun! We should all remember, you are never to old to play in the snow...

Every Day!

2010-02-11T07:42:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to make a conscious effort to be creative everyday. It's odd, but it is actually hard to do. Why do we ignore what it is that is so much a part of us? Because it's not conventional? Because it's not a 9-5 job in an office? Because we aren't making "money" off of it? I find little things already *and wow.. only a couple days in* that keep me from just doing it! Even things that inspire me are hindering me! I look at these blogs and compare myself to them.. but I must remember I'm not them, I'm me.. and what I'm doing counts.. even if it's small.. even if my blog isn't custom and wonderfully full of html hoopla... yet *gotta figure that out first*

But here are my rules: even if it is small, I will do something.. even if it's a wonderful quote that inspires creative thinking. Even if I write a personal journal entry.. I will make some kind of mark into the universe. I want to add, not subtract to the world. I really don't want to fight anything and stay positive.. but it's just not in my nature.. I'm more of a arguer... but I sure think it's good that I'm trying not to be that way.

I will be fearless, darling!
And some things from earlier in the week:

Hello world, How's It Hanging?

2010-02-09T08:03:00.000-08:00

Hello world. I've decided to smile and wave and do this because this is something I've wanted to do for a long time. Frankly, I am tired of reading blog after beautiful blog and thinking I wish, I wish, I wish.

My fear always kept me from doing this. I was always afraid nobody would care what I had to say.. that I had nothing interesting enough in my life to talk about.
I always feared my art wasn't worth sharing..

I could kick myself! Guess what? If I think nobody cares, then I have complete freedom! If nobody cares, I'm truly doing this for me, and me only. I put my pretty/not pictures, my random thoughts, my good/bad art.. out into the world with no editing.. that is how it should be. I know in all actuality that there are at least some people that care.. but this is for me because I have a need to create and all these beautiful blogs I've read are the things that inspire me to do so daily.

Right now. So here goes nothin'!

What Inspires Me:
Madeline Bea
Bloom, Grow, Love
Life, Love, Paper
Suzi Blu
Jenny Doh
Misty Mawn